ENHEARTENED with Xavier Dagba

What if some of the ways spirituality is practiced today are actually reinforcing the very suffering they claim to heal?

In this powerful and confronting conversation, Xavier Dagba sits down with Scott Kiloby, founder of the Kiloby Inquiry and a pioneer in trauma-informed nondual work, to explore a hidden pattern affecting countless seekers, teachers, and healers:

Spirituality used as a way to avoid feeling.

Together, they unpack what happens when spiritual concepts are used to bypass pain, suppress emotions, or dissociate from the body, and how this “spiritual illness” quietly keeps people stuck, fragmented, and disconnected from real integration.

This episode is for you if:

You’ve done years of inner work but still feel blocked, numb, or disconnected

You sense that “letting go,” “transcending the ego,” or “staying high-vibe” has cost you access to your humanity

You’re ready for a grounded, embodied, trauma-aware approach to awakening

You want spirituality that includes the nervous system, the body, and emotional truth

This is not a rejection of spirituality. It’s an invitation to make it honest, embodied, and liberating.

ABOUT SCOTT KILOBY

Scott Kiloby is the founder of Kiloby Inquiry, a trauma-informed approach to nonduality that directly addresses emotional repression, compulsions, and nervous system dysregulation.

Website: https://kiloby.com
Instagram: https://instagram.com/scottkiloby

EXPLORE XAVIER’S WORK

Book — Scars of Gold
A framework for shadow integration, self-liberation, and embodied truth
https://www.scarsofgold.com

Newsletter — Embodied Light
Weekly reflections, teachings, and invitations
https://newsletter.xavierdagba.com

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⏱️ CHAPTERS

00:00 — Introduction: the hidden cost of spiritual avoidance
02:30 — Scott Kiloby’s background and path into inquiry
06:10 — When spirituality becomes another addiction
10:45 — Spiritual bypassing vs. true liberation
15:05 — Trauma, dissociation, and the nervous system
20:20 — Why “letting go” often doesn’t work
26:30 — Avoiding feelings in the name of awakening
32:10 — The problem with transcendence without embodiment
38:25 — How suppression masquerades as peace
45:40 — Spiritual suppression and emotional numbness
52:15 — Nonduality, inquiry, and meeting what’s here
58:00 — What real integration actually requires
1:05:10 — Bringing awareness into the body
1:12:40 — A more honest path to freedom
1:21:00 — Closing reflections and invitations

#SpiritualBypassing #EmbodiedSpirituality #ShadowIntegration #TraumaInformed #SomaticHealing #NonDuality #EmotionalHealing #SpiritualAwakening #InnerWork #EnheartenedPodcast

JOIN THE RETREAT (this Saturday):

UPROOTING THE RELATIONAL SHADOWS THAT HIJACK YOUR MISSION: THE RETREAT
➡️ Live Saturday, December 13th — Replay Included
https://www.xavierdagba.com/retreat

ABOUT THIS EPISODE — How Your Mother & Father Wounds Hijack Your Purpose

In this episode, I explore one of the deepest truths I’ve seen in my own journey and in the lives of every lightworker, creative, and soul-led entrepreneur I’ve worked with:

Your mission is not being blocked by strategy.
Your purpose is being hijacked by your relational blueprint.

We look at how your mother and father wounds, inner child dynamics, attachment patterns, and the internalized voices of your caregivers shape:

your ability to be visible,

your emotional resilience,

your capacity to lead from the heart,

your relationship with responsibility,

your ability to receive support and abundance,

your confidence in shining your light,

and your willingness to take up space.

We also explore the toxic mix of the inner child + inner critic that quietly sabotages creativity, leadership, and self-expression, especially for lightworkers and mission-led leaders.

And because holiday season relational patterns are activating right now, this episode is also a guide to stay sovereign rather than spiraling into old dynamics.

If you’ve ever wondered why you can KNOW your purpose but still feel unable to live it, this episode will give you the map.

ORDER MY BOOK — Scars of Gold

Until Saturday, December 13th, the eBook is only $2.99 on most online retailers:
Amazon Kindle, Apple Books, Barnes & Noble, Kobo, and more.

Claim your bonuses here when you register your order:
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CHAPTERS

00:00 – Why you’re not stuck: the hidden relational imprint
01:20 – Strategy isn’t the issue — inner fragmentation is
03:00 – The holiday activation window & why this work matters now
04:10 – You learned to abandon your light in relationships
06:00 – The core fears behind self-expression
07:15 – Childhood fragmentation & staying attached
09:05 – Mapping the inner archetypes (Mother, Father, Child, Critic)
11:30 – When the inner critic becomes spiritualized
13:05 – Inner mother distortions: overgiving, collapsing boundaries
15:00 – Inner father distortions: visibility, authority & decisiveness
17:00 – When the inner child runs your mission
19:00 – Becoming the leader your light deserves
20:30 – Personal story: relational patterns surfacing during your book launch
22:00 – Recognizing ancestral patterns & internalized narratives
25:00 – Purpose as a trauma bond: the anxious attachment to your mission
27:15 – Why the holidays amplify relational wounds
29:00 – Personal story: leaving your PhD & early father imprints
33:00 – Breaking the inherited template in 2018
36:00 – 2026: The year of sovereign leadership
38:10 – What the retreat will help you reclaim
39:05 – Closing invitation & gratitude

#shadowwork #innerchildhealing #motherwound #fatherwound #relationalhealing #purposework #selfliberation #nervoussystemregulation #lightworkers #spiritualentrepreneur #somatichealing #archetypes #attachmenthealing #innerauthority #healingjourney #EnheartenedPodcast #XavierDagba #ScarsOfGold #relationalalchemy #leadershiphealing

Join the workshop - The Alchemy of Self-Abandonment
Transcend the protective patterns that keep your voice, truth, and brilliance in the shadows.
Live on Wednesday Nov 5th — Replay included
https://www.xavierdagba.com/returntosoul

About this episode.

These times are putting us through a sacred friction. We are living in a collective pressure-cooker. An era where authenticity can feel risky and self-abandonment can feel like safety.

In this episode, we explore how the world is inviting you to either collapse into old patterns of shrinking, silence, and self-betrayal…

Or ignite a profound return to your Self. To your truth. To your light. To the part of you that refuses to betray your soul again.

We’ll talk about the subtle ways self-abandonment still sneaks in—especially for conscious people—and why this moment in history is calling something powerful forward in you.

📖 Order my book, Scars of Gold
A guide for shadow integration, self-liberation, and reclaiming your light.
https://www.scarsofgold.com

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⏱️ Chapters

0:00 Welcome & Introduction
0:24 Why I've been offline — choosing presence
2:42 The vulnerability of publishing a book
4:30 Getting married & pausing promotion
6:20 Presence over performance
8:02 When your mission becomes self-abandonment
9:20 Divine timing: Book launch & family reunion
13:30 Full-circle moment with my parents
15:10 Collective turmoil & self-abandonment
16:30 Hyper-polarization & identity pressure
18:50 Information overload & losing discernment
20:35 Fear-based narratives & shrinking
22:15 Performative empathy & silencing truth
24:36 Outsourcing authority & losing inner power
26:30 Soul abandonment — the most painful kind
28:18 Cynicism as a trauma response
31:10 Reclaiming your power in friction
33:02 New definition of safety: Light is safe
34:45 The Archetypal Fears (Humiliation / Alienation / Loss / Persecution / Death)
37:38 Quiet rebellion — living your truth without performing
39:30 The collective is training us for sovereignty
41:50 A world asking you to armor up — and choosing to stay open-hearted
45:00 Your soul is not meant to remain in the shadows
47:10 Workshop Invitation & Closing

#selfabandonment #shadowintegration #selfliberation #sovereignty #innerwork #healingjourney #consciousleadership #spiritualawakening #soulwork #embodiment #innerauthority #authenticity #lightwork #traumainformedhealing #personaldevelopment #enheartened #scarsofgold #xavierdagba

My new book Scars of Gold (Hay House, Sept 23, 2025) is available for preorder.

Claim exclusive bonuses when you preorder and register your copy here: www.scarsofgold.com

About this episode of ENHEARTENED

What if every symptom your body creates is not a mistake, but an intelligent adaptation? In this powerful episode of ENHEARTENED, Xavier Dagba sits down with Dr. Melissa Sell to explore the revolutionary framework of German New Medicine (GNM) and the 5 Biological Laws.

You’ll discover:

* How the body’s symptoms reveal unresolved conflicts

* Why healing begins with awareness, not fear

* The most common biological conflicts affecting modern health

* Practical tools to reclaim freedom, peace, and trust in your body

* How to decode your body’s wisdom and step into vibrant health

This is not medical advice but an invitation to expand your perspective and reclaim agency in your healing journey.

Connect with Dr. Melissa Sell

Website: drmelissasell.com

Instagram: @drmelissasell

Connect with Xavier Dagba

Website: www.xavierdagba.com

Substack: newsletter.xavierdagba.com

Podcast — ENHEARTENED with Xavier Dagba

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📖 Scars of Gold (Book)

Amazon (Canada): https://www.amazon.ca/Scars-Gold-Framework-Self-Liberation-Integration/dp/1401995675/

Amazon (US) https://www.amazon.com/Scars-Gold-Framework-Self-Liberation-Integration/dp/1401995675

Audible: https://www.audible.ca/pd/B0DMTRSC88

⏳ Chapters

00:00 – Opening: Cancer as adaptation?

04:34 – The story of Dr. Hamer and German New Medicine

08:45 – Rethinking cancer: mistake or logic?

13:00 – What triggers biological adaptation

17:08 – Conflict shocks and resourcefulness

21:11 – Symptoms as mirrors of freedom

25:28 – Why the body never makes mistakes

29:52 – Every symptom tells a story

34:00 – Early separation conflicts & childhood links

38:10 – Trusting the body’s intelligence

42:26 – Responsibility vs. victimhood

47:06 – Learning to trust your body again

52:11 – Resolution: practical and perceptual shifts

56:08 – Emotional maturity and healing capacity

1:00:21 – Facing mirrors in relationships

1:05:07 – Curiosity: decoding symptoms

1:09:26 – The 5 Biological Laws explained

1:13:57 – Microbes as the body’s repair crew

1:18:52 – Nature’s logic and benevolence

1:23:38 – Common biological conflicts

1:27:30 – Becoming your own detective

1:31:40 – An integrated model of health

1:36:09 – Escaping the fragility paradigm

1:40:47 – Scars of Gold and truth in healing

1:45:07 – Closing reflections & final wisdom

#GermanNewMedicine #DrMelissaSell #XavierDagba #EnheartenedPodcast #BodyWisdom #SelfHealing #ScarsOfGold #HolisticHealth #ShadowIntegration #EmotionalHealing #MindBodyConnection

My new book Scars of Gold (Hay House, Sept 23, 2025) is available for preorder. Claim exclusive bonuses when you preorder and register your copy here: www.scarsofgold.com

This solo episode is one I’ve been waiting all year to share with you. It’s not just about my new book Scars of Gold — it’s about the deeper invitation behind it: reconciling with your shadow.

So often we treat the shadow as the enemy — the reason for sabotage, resistance, or disconnection. But what if the shadow is not here to destroy you… but to guide you back to your wholeness?

In this episode, I explore:

* The journey of writing Scars of Gold and how the book “rewrote” me before I could write it.

* Why I see the shadow as benevolent — a storehouse of repressed light, not just pain.

* The difference between self-abandonment, fragmentation, and true integration.

* Why reconciliation with your shadow is the foundation for living with an unleashed heart.

👉 Pre-order Scars of Gold and unlock your bonuses:

When you pre-order at www.scarsofgold.com , you’ll receive the Scars of Gold Immersion, including:

** A 3-part live workshop series (“Reconciling with the Shadow”) diving into core fears, parental/origin shadows, and relational shadows.

** The Golden Shadow Journal to help you reclaim the light your shadow has been guarding.

** Radiant Return, a guided Golden Shadow integration journey.

** A 7-day Golden Shadow Challenge in September.

This is more than a book launch. It’s a full immersion into the work of integration and self-liberation.

CHAPTERS

00:00 – Welcome & why this episode matters

01:00 – What is a “scar of gold”?

01:55 – The influence of Kintsugi & the refusal of brokenness

03:00 – Early book title ideas: I Wish I Failed Them Sooner

04:10 – The Dark Night of the Ego vs. the Dark Night of the Soul

05:10 – The years of “divine frustration” (2020–2023)

06:30 – When the book rewrites you before you can write it

07:05 – Devotional practice: writing the book out loud on social media

09:00 – The world feels it when you reclaim your repressed gifts

09:30 – Invitation to pre-order Scars of Gold + bonuses explained

14:30 – Sacred wounds vs. ordinary wounds

15:00 – The poem on wounds that initiate power

17:00 – Why we scapegoat the shadow and try to amputate it

19:20 – Reconciling instead of resisting the shadow

20:40 – The trap of moral/spiritual superiority

23:00 – Parenting and the humbling power of shadow work

25:20 – The hidden benefits of shadow attachments

26:20 – Chapter 1 of Scars of Gold: The Call of the Shadow

28:20 – Chapter 2: Self-abandonment as the beginning of the divide

30:00 – Love in action vs. conditional self-acceptance

33:15 – Self-abandonment as the “original sin”

34:30 – Chapter 3: Fragmentation and the fracture of the psyche

36:20 – Building a healthy relationship with your shadow

37:20 – The benevolence of the shadow

40:00 – Seeing the shadow as an ally, not an enemy

41:00 – Gratitude and invitation to join the Scars of Gold Immersion

42:30 – Vulnerability of releasing art into the world

46:00 – Final invitation: preorder + 3-part workshop

#ShadowWork #ScarsOfGold #XavierDagba #PersonalGrowth #HealingJourney #SelfLiberation #TraumaHealing #InnerWork #SpiritualAwakening #IntegrationWork #ShadowIntegration #BenevolenceOfTheShadow #SelfAbandonment #Fragmentation #HealingTrauma #EnheartenedPodcast #goldenshadow

✨ Connect with Xavier Dagba

🌐 Website: https://www.xavierdagba.com

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