112: Why It Makes Sense That You've Lost Your Purpose
Send Jen a Text MessageWhen your baby dies, it’s not just them you lose—it’s the version of you that was going to be their mom. So what happens when the path you were on suddenly disappears?In today’s episode, I’m sharing something that so many of us loss moms silently struggle with—the deep, aching question of purpose. Who am I now that I’m no longer the mom I was becoming? What do I even care about anymore?Whether you feel like you’re just going through the motions or you’ve completely lost your spark, I want you to know this: You are not broken—you’re becoming. And the fact that nothing feels meaningful right now? That makes perfect sense.In this solo episode, I open up about what happened after I lost my twin girls at 32 weeks—the grief, the guilt, the chaos I tried to out-busy—and how I slowly started finding my way back to a purpose that honored them, without burying myself.This isn’t about building a brand-new life overnight. It’s about letting the tiniest spark guide you. It’s about asking softer questions, noticing what lights you up (even a little), and allowing space for purpose to return in a new way… one that makes space for both your grief and your growth.What You'll Learn in This Episode:Why it’s normal to feel like your purpose disappeared after your baby diedHow identity and direction get shattered after loss—and how to begin rebuildingWhat purpose can look like (spoiler: it doesn’t have to be big, shiny, or loud)How to start asking the right questions when you don’t know what’s nextWhy honoring your baby might be the key to rediscovering yourselfA client story that shows how purpose can come in quiet, unexpected waysResources & Mentions:Join the Always Loved Club — My gentle support membership for loss moms: https://programs.jennifersenn.com/clubDM me on Instagram to share what this episode brought up for you: https://www.instagram.com/navigatingbabylossMore free resources and coaching info: https://jennifersenn.comStillbirth moms—you don’t have to do this alone. The Always Loved Club is a new monthly space with live workshops, weekly audio support, private community chat, and Q&As for postpartum and pregnancy after loss. Plus, couples calls every few months. Join us at programs.jennifersenn.com/club.CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD YOUR FREE VIDEO SERIES: "Why No One Understands Your Pain After Stillbirth"WHERE TO FIND AND FOLLOW ME! Website- https://www.jennifersenn.com Tik Tok-https://www.tiktok.com/@navigatingbabyloss Instagram-https://www.instagram.com/navigatingbabyloss/ You Tube-https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz-2MCEY5PRiF6p6VB_2lxA
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111: When Going Back to Work Feels Impossible After Baby Loss
Send Jen a Text MessageYou’re barely surviving most days, and now someone expects you to show up like your old self at work? Let’s be honest — returning to work after losing your baby is one of the hardest, most disorienting parts of life after loss. And it’s not just about grief — it’s about identity, exhaustion, pressure, and a complete reshuffling of what matters.In this episode, I’m sharing the real and raw truths about what it’s like to return to work after stillbirth — from my own experience as a hairstylist to the stories I hear every day from the moms I coach.We’ll talk about the pressure to go back before you're ready, the guilt for not wanting the same career anymore, and why this transition is about so much more than just showing up for a paycheck.You’ll walk away with real tools for checking in with yourself, setting boundaries at work, and making this transition on your own terms — even if the world is telling you to "get back to normal."What you’ll learn in this episode:How to know if you’re truly ready to return to workPractical ways to ease back in (and how to ask for them)Scripts to handle coworkers’ questions or insensitive commentsWhy it’s okay if your career no longer fits — and what to do about itWhat 30% of women do differently after loss — and why you might tooHow to protect your energy and emotional bandwidth at workMentioned in this episode:Book a free support call with me: https://jennifersenn.com/support-callStillbirth moms—you don’t have to do this alone. The Always Loved Club is a new monthly space with live workshops, weekly audio support, private community chat, and Q&As for postpartum and pregnancy after loss. Plus, couples calls every few months. Join us at programs.jennifersenn.com/club.CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD YOUR FREE VIDEO SERIES: "Why No One Understands Your Pain After Stillbirth"WHERE TO FIND AND FOLLOW ME! Website- https://www.jennifersenn.com Tik Tok-https://www.tiktok.com/@navigatingbabyloss Instagram-https://www.instagram.com/navigatingbabyloss/ You Tube-https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz-2MCEY5PRiF6p6VB_2lxA
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110: The Father’s Side of Stillbirth No One Talks About: My Husband's Story
Send Jen a Text MessageIn honor of Father’s Day, I invited my husband, David, onto the podcast for a candid and unscripted conversation about what it was really like for us to survive the loss of our stillborn twins—and what that journey looked like for our marriage, for each of us as individuals, and for the family we were trying to hold together.We didn’t prep. We didn’t rehearse. He didn’t even really know what I was going to ask.It’s been 25 years since that loss, but the impact is still so present. And while we grieved so differently—and often didn’t understand each other in those early days—we both agree on this: it changed everything.David shares what he remembers from that heartbreaking day, how he coped (or didn’t), and what it felt like to try and support me through something he couldn’t fix. I open up about the bitterness, the guilt, and the distance that threatened to swallow our marriage whole. We talk about the things we never said back then. And we’re finally saying them now.This episode isn’t polished. It’s real. It’s raw. It’s the stuff you rarely hear dads talk about.And if you’re a loss mom wondering how your partner is coping… or struggling to connect with them through your own grief… or even just holding onto hope that your relationship can survive this—please listen.You're not alone in how hard this is.What You'll Hear in This Episode:The moment David found out our babies had diedWhy we grieved so differently—and how that caused tensionWhat no one told us about the isolation after lossHow David’s medical background shaped the way he processed griefWhy I judged his grief (and why he felt helpless to comfort mine)The one thing that kept our marriage from falling apartHow long it really took before I felt even a little okayWhat support looked like when it wasn't workingStillbirth moms—you don’t have to do this alone. The Always Loved Club is a new monthly space with live workshops, weekly audio support, private community chat, and Q&As for postpartum and pregnancy after loss. Plus, couples calls every few months. Join us at programs.jennifersenn.com/club.CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD YOUR FREE VIDEO SERIES: "Why No One Understands Your Pain After Stillbirth"WHERE TO FIND AND FOLLOW ME! Website- https://www.jennifersenn.com Tik Tok-https://www.tiktok.com/@navigatingbabyloss Instagram-https://www.instagram.com/navigatingbabyloss/ You Tube-https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz-2MCEY5PRiF6p6VB_2lxA
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109: Why Did My Baby Have to Die?
Send Jen a Text MessageHave you ever looked around and thought, “Why me?” Or maybe more often, “Why not them?”In this raw and necessary episode, I’m talking about something that many of us feel but almost never say out loud: survivor’s guilt after stillbirth. That gut-punching question — Why was I allowed to live when my baby wasn’t? — doesn’t have easy answers, but you’re not the only one who’s asked it. I’ve asked it too.If your grief is tangled with guilt, shame, or that deep sense that you should have done something, this episode will feel like a breath of honesty and relief. I’ll help you understand where these thoughts come from, why they’re so common, and how to start loosening their grip — without ever letting go of your love.You’re not broken for feeling this way. You’re grieving. And you deserve support, not shame.What You’ll Learn:What survivor’s guilt really is — and why it’s so common after stillbirthThe “should have” thoughts that keep moms stuck in blameHow guilt shows up in your everyday life (even when you don’t realize it)What to say to yourself when the guilt voice whispers or shoutsHow to begin replacing guilt with truth and reclaim your right to liveWhy honoring your life is one of the bravest ways to honor your baby’sStillbirth moms—you don’t have to do this alone. The Always Loved Club is a new monthly space with live workshops, weekly audio support, private community chat, and Q&As for postpartum and pregnancy after loss. Plus, couples calls every few months. Join us at programs.jennifersenn.com/club.CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD YOUR FREE VIDEO SERIES: "Why No One Understands Your Pain After Stillbirth"WHERE TO FIND AND FOLLOW ME! Website- https://www.jennifersenn.com Tik Tok-https://www.tiktok.com/@navigatingbabyloss Instagram-https://www.instagram.com/navigatingbabyloss/ You Tube-https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz-2MCEY5PRiF6p6VB_2lxA
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108: How to Deal with the Loss of Friendships After Baby Loss
Send Jen a Text MessageWhen you lose your baby, no one warns you that you might lose your friends too. The texts fade, the calls stop, and suddenly you're not just grieving your child—you’re grieving relationships you thought were solid. And that secondary loss? It hits hard.In this episode, I’m sharing a deeply personal and often overlooked part of baby loss—what happens when your friendships don’t survive your grief. I’ll talk about the awkward silences, the disappearing acts, and why it’s not your fault when people can’t show up for you in the way you hoped they would.You’ll hear how I struggled with feeling “too much” and “too broken,” and how a client of mine discovered a powerful shift that helped her stop blaming herself when a close friend disappeared after her stillbirth.This episode is for the mom who’s already hurting—and now also feels abandoned. Let’s talk about how to honor the grief of lost friendships, how to protect your energy, and how to stay open to finding your safe people again.Here’s what we’ll talk about:Why people pull away after stillbirth—and why it's rarely about youHow to deal with the silence and ghosting from close friendsWhat to do when it feels like you lost your baby and your best friendThe grief of friendships changing—and how to give yourself permission to mourn themHow to spot and lean into the “safe people” who do show upA reminder that you deserve friendships that feel safe and real—even in your griefMentioned in this episode:WebsiteInstagramJoin The Stillbirth Roadmap WaitlistLet’s Stay ConnectedSubscribe to the show: Navigating Baby Loss on Apple PodcastsWant to talk? Schedule a free session with me: https://calendly.com/jennifersenn/30-minute-support-callStillbirth moms—you don’t have to do this alone. The Always Loved Club is a new monthly space with live workshops, weekly audio support, private community chat, and Q&As for postpartum and pregnancy after loss. Plus, couples calls every few months. Join us at programs.jennifersenn.com/club.CLICK HERE TO DOWNLOAD YOUR FREE VIDEO SERIES: "Why No One Understands Your Pain After Stillbirth"WHERE TO FIND AND FOLLOW ME! Website- https://www.jennifersenn.com Tik Tok-https://www.tiktok.com/@navigatingbabyloss Instagram-https://www.instagram.com/navigatingbabyloss/ You Tube-https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCz-2MCEY5PRiF6p6VB_2lxA
This is where we say the things we can't say anywhere else to anyone else. Join certified life coach and stillbirth mom Jennifer Senn as she shares stories and has conversations about what life is like after suffering the loss of your baby and of the future you dreamed of before you heard those awful four words. Grief lasts a lifetime but you don't have to struggle with guilt, fear, and the isolation that is so common for loss moms. Navigating Baby Loss will give you inspiration and hope from hearing others' stories and Jennifer will share valuable information about how you can ease your pain with the things that are hardest to cope with in the months and years following your stillbirth loss.
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